Unicorns, rainbows, faint hearts... this is your time to stop reading....
Growing up sucks. Remember the time when you could dream and let dreams be your master (I am getting all Kipling on you)...when all dreams seemed possible, when nothing was your fault, and there was always a fall back aka family... well... sorry to break it you.... that phase comes with an expiration date. Growing up means owning up to your faults, troubles, mistrials, misfortune, and generally being responsible for yourself. And some times you hold your head high and take on this growing up thing with a lot of grace. Other times, you just let it get to you. Either times, the growing up is what wins, mind you. But when S hits the roof, sometimes you trudge along and other times you want to cower with grief. Yes, I have a musical point to make! Fine! I will get to it. Not a patient lot are we?
The "Hemamalini" relief to this "Dharmendra" of the grief can be found in comforting family or the all powerful therapeutic music. Some prefer happy, uplifting, and spiritual music to tide them through. Then there are others that prefer sad and angry music for these opportune times. There isn't much of a case to be made in defense of "Mr. Happy Music" over there. I mean everyone needs to eventually get out of the grief spiral and find that happiness. You cannot be in grief "forever" as much as you would like it. Plus... it is boring and tacky to talk about Mr. HM. But then let's focus on the "Mr. Sad music" or "Mr. Angry music" for a minute.
There is a certain sense to be had in simmering in anger and grief for a while before coming up for Happiness. I know it sounds counter-intuitive as I am suggesting you to dig deeper into the grief to find the fastest way out. But sometimes, acknowledging it that way does help.
Those that know me will know that I think A R Rahman is the next best thing since sliced bread. And they are not wrong. So I was attempting to create this alternate world, where there is only A R Rahman music and was trying to make sure my .... erm....citizens in my alternate world had all their musical needs taken care of. There emerged a problem. A minor technicality, really. A.R. Rahman's music, it seems, does not take this issue of grief and address it head long. Every situation in a movie where grief presents itself and A.R. Rahman's music has to convey that sense of place to the audience, his music has either spiritualized the situation or stylized the mood or even peppered it with some FTS kind of songs (Sadda Haq, anyone?). But I have not had a song of his that hit me with a tonne of grief brick and kept weighing on me till I cried it all out. There are some good sad songs, but his music tends to get to the happy or recuperating place too soon without lingering much in that sad space.
What do you think? Anyone care to disagree? I know I am going all morbid on you but not all days are Fridays, right? Believe it or not, every Friday has a Monday following it. So for those bluey days, hope you find some comfort in songs that make you.... less blue?
Few of his songs come pretty close but still don't get us all the way there. I am just going to list here instead of provide links.
"Nahin Samne" - Taal ------ Jewel of a song but also more stylized than sad.
"Agar Tum Saath Ho" - Tamasha ------ Great attempt but not quite there.
"Lukka Chuppi" - Rang De Basanti ------ Almost a winner but also gets very esoteric and vague.
"Ek Tu Hi Bharosa" - Pukar ------- Spiritual and almost uplifting.
"Yengai Yennuthu Kavithai" - Kandukondain Kandukondain ------- Too Soppy and not sad enough. Also stylized
"Sadda Haq" - Rockstar ------ Angry with a little bit of sadness but generally more angry.
"Khwaja Mere Khwaja" and "Man Mohana" - Jodha Akbar ----- Spiritual.
"Kahin Aag Lage" - Taal ---- Kickass song but also extremely stylized.
"Kaise Mujhe Tum" - Ghazini ----- Sad but almost romantic and happy.
"Roobaroo" - Rang De Basanti ------ Super Awesome and extremely quirky but also extremely stylized depiction of sadness.
"Ae Ajnabi" - Dil Se ---- Just not one of my favorites.
This song always gets tears in my eyes... but only because I am an NRI.... But if I have to pick one his songs as a winner, this would be it. Have you heard the shehnai version... real tear jerker that one...